Life's walk

Palawan Trip

2009-04-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

Hello World! I'm back! so literally this unique space will hopefully come alive again. To start with, Life's walk will make you see where I'd been, but as for my personal gain, also makes me realize rich things for my heart and mind.

2006-07-02T02:36:00.000-07:00

heto po nagbabalik! masaya ako kasi nanalo si Pac-quiao! (pronounce kasi un ng announcer) gogogogo! buti na lang nanalo kungdi ewan ko na lang. Ma ays but na lang kung hindi baka bigla ka umuwi pra.... hehehe

dami na nangyari sa araw-araw, dami nangyayari sa mga kaibigan ko, sa mga ka-opisina ko, sa mga churchmates ko, sa mga pamilya ko, mga artista, sa politiko, even sa mga nagadaan kong relasyon hehehehe but still God is good amidst of us all.Sa bawat sulat ko ang gusto ko is to always lift up the name of the lord for he is worthy.

heto actually ang post, still missing my loved ones back home and they keep sending me pics. Dami na ikinasal..ika nga nila e naunahan na naman kami magkakapatid ng aming mga pinsan. Hmm anyway im happy para sa kanilang lahat dahil nasa maayos n kalagayan sila. God is continously blessing my loved ones, keeping us all together and even though without that much acquaintance. Na miss daw nila ako sa occassion kasi walang nang bading sa kanila kasi nga naman Pag nagkita kita ...naku kay gulo. hehehehe. (teka ayaw pa po ma-upload ng pics)

2006-06-04T03:06:00.000-07:00

its been long time i havent airing my thoughts... well most likely thoughts that are lonely...coz i feel lonely of missing my famly back home but then i feel helpless coz i cant go home till i get my goal or as I have planned, and hey this is just part of the challenge of choosing this path. For i know God has never left me nor forsake me, and its me who always athink this way and feel this way, i cant detach myself to the thought that time is such precious to me... i dont want to say to myself one day that I shouldnt have done these or i should have done that. I should chose this instead of deciding...it feels difficult when you are in doubt of your decision...but then before i close my eyes i just say I know there is a God up there who knows my every thoughts that no one can interpret no matter how they watch, look and observe me, no matter how much i open my mouth to details.

Pinapatulan ko kasi emotions ko, elln namn... emotions lang yan, sbi nga gamitin ang utak, thats why theres also wisdom, dont self destruct, dont poison urself to something unpleasant. (kausap ko lang sarili ko mga pre) pinagagalitan ko lang. ma-pride pa kc ako pa minsan lalo na pag wala nakaka halukay ube ng thoughts and feelings ko, namimiss ko na bessy ko. I hope she's ok.

Again, father God sorry for complaining, u know naman I always mention to you how much i admire u and praise u for u are wonderful to me. U always hear me whisper I love you.

Simple Pleasure...

2006-05-25T08:41:00.000-07:00

Tag ni mama Lizzy! ang friend kong mama rocker!hot momma pa!

Instructions: Name ten of life’s simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.So here are my ten simple pleasures

(no particular order)

Uno- Kumanta, nakaka-relax kumanta at hindi yata ako mabubuhay ng walang music kahit wala pa akong player or radio kakanta ako, minsan may sayaw pa ( di ba ma ays?). Cguro lalo na pag galing ka sa pamilyang musikero sayang lang at hindi ko naman ang talent na yun kay ama! talentado yun eh! Proud of you dad!

Dos- Mag drive habang sakay ng isang convertible na sasakyan playing all kinds of songs hanggang maubos ko...drive lang ng drive ika nga overdrive..hanggang sa buwan... habang sumasalampak sa mukha ko ang hangin... tapos stop over sa ibat ibang kainan bawat probinsyang madaanan. Sarap!

Tres- Mag spa, sauna with massage mula ulo hanggang kuko samahan pa ng foot spa!

Quatro- makapag outing kaming family sa isang private beach kahit 1 week lang at lumibot sa isla at mag party kami.

Singko- Mag jamming kami uli buong family

Sais- maglambing...malambing... di ko na matandaan when was d last time a special someone caressing me, promise nakalimutan ko na po.

Siete- Family day Sunday Fun day namin!

Otso- Hanging out with friends.

Nuebe- Praise and Worship!

Dies- It is my pleasure to pray and give thanks to God.

tag ko kay: Pipay, mmy-lei, momm Ann, tia neng, tito KD, sis D, melai, Doc Kenji

2006-05-09T02:45:00.000-07:00

Admirer(aron)
the silence of a man’s action in love
is stronger than the chap of guts
silent operator as you may call him
sending you thoughts of his scheme
the sense of his idea lies between
hidden feelings in each line you read
you are someone he seriously admires
for reasons he can only explain why?
every question has its own answer
and every guy deserves his own girl
what do this phrase trying to say?
to your judgment he leaves this case
different from the usual ways of others
in expressing how he admires thee
the action of his intention through pen
your admirer’s way to set feelings free
Delete ?

Approve?

Bigay ng kaibigan ko sa akin na poem sa friendster for testimonial...approve or delete? survey says?...

2006-04-30T02:38:00.000-07:00

Ang taggay ni Tito KD...kanta ako? sure? hehehehe

1.) Out of my league by stephen speaks
- fave ko kasi feeling ko ang haba ng hair ko kapag kinanta sakin yan at saka kasama yan sa collections na ibinigay ng aking special friend from pinas... (ma ays... mmmm)

2.) Awit ng barkada by APO
- ang mga nami-miss kong barkada sa pinas beh-beh, i-i, adee, AS Signs kuya - kakaiba kami magbarkadahan at maging mag kumpare at the same time magkaka trabaho. Baby ako ng mga kuya at nanay naman ako ng mga girls kasi lolo na nila sina kuya mon, harvey, nico, jim, waldz, roswell, bong, etc. miss ko na po kayo! pati si sir peter miss daw ako ahihihihih bloody boss ko from australia!

3.) Journey by lea salonga
- graduation song nung nag graduate ako ng AMA... para sakin marami nilalaman ang kanta, prang wrapped na dun ang lahat ng pinagdaanan namin magbabarkada, ang buhay ko biglang flash back. Basta ang daming masaya ang dami rin malungkot. Pagkakanta ko yata nito ay nagsimula ang maraming challenges ko sa buhay at tuloy tuloy na which i believe para sa ikakabuti ko.

4.) Sunligth by kevyn lettau
- Nai-post ko n ito before nung marami akong namimiss sa pinas... u know y? coz this song ay mina-master yata naming pamilya, dad ko on saxophone, kuya on lead guitar, chris on base, carlo on drums, ate lead vocals, awi, g, and me as back ups minsan kami sumosolo... ang sarap ng feeling jamming buong family minsan nag aasaran pa pag out of tune. Proud ako sa inyo mga tol1 proud of you dad! actually watch out for my dad s K" ung kay korina na show...guest sya dun.

5.) Where is the love by black eyed peas
- feel ko pang beauty contest... I want world peace! It always cross my mind that wherever i may go may nagugutom at may kaguluhan at ayon sa survey na napanuod ko sa TFC may mga countries na lonely pa rin kahit mayaman na bansa sila. Only proves na money cant buy happiness... kaya uwi na kaya ako? hehehehehe joke

6.) Thank you ( I forgot the artist...)
- thank you to mom at dad for the path we all went through,for the faith you both have shared to me, for our upbringing and all the sacrifices sa aming 8 magkakapatid at lahat nakapag tapos. Salamat dahil patuloy nyo kami inuunawa sa kabila ng pagkukulang namin at salamat sa kakulitan nyo kaya naging kakaiba kayo hehehehe Inspiration ko kayo.

7.) Through it all by darlene szchech
- My song of praise to God. madinig nyo man ako magreklamo o mamublema o mag isip ng sanlibong worries sa dulo ng lahat ng iyon ang pananampalataya ko kay Lord pa rin ang pinananaligan ko.

Tag....hmmm...

2006-04-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

(moment again with friends habang naglalakad sa Al Muraqabat Road, Deira City, Dubai)

Ive been so busy lately dahil ako nag relieve sa position ni ayie while she's on vacation for 30 days (kainggit!). Nandyan na mag 12 oras ako para lang mag catch up sa loads of work and mountains of files plus d factor na may mga nakaka asar sa paligid! of course di nawawala yun pero sana sensible naman di mababaw. Kakapikon kasi parang di normal. Pagalitan na ako sa technical na pagkakamali pero dont tell me I am lying just to make excuse or just to save my ass! I think they just want to put on blame to me and taking advantage of me being quiet over here. Gaya nga ng sbi ko kay mmy-lei dahil kinagagalitan na po ako...ayoko magalit dahil nagpa-palpitate ako yun pa nga hindi ako nagagalit palpitate na ako. The last time nag labas ako sama ng loob ay hindi ako makahinga sa lakas ngpalpitation ko. (oo nga po kailangan ko magpa-check up, kailangan pahalagahan ko health ko, opo) Anyways, Im getting used to them. Ayaw pa nga ibigay ang reimbursement ko for my transport which is nakasaad naman sa contract ko, and yet pag di nila approve kailangan lunukin ko na lang? actually the amount is not my point, kahit magkano pa yun, I just dont like the idea that they are taking away what is due. It is mine, it is my right! There's so many things na naiiba ayon sa mga sinasabi nilang we should have but from time to time nababago. Maliit na nga ang sahod namin compared to them and yet for 'd small amount that is legal and valid they just want to void. Anyways, I may lose a small amount but I think I gain more from heaven coz I am willing to give it freely. But I dont wanna do it again to them sa mga deserving na lang.

So much for that, paki batukan po ako kasi im sooooo kaka--- kasi last friday sama ko sa churchmates dito sa Auh mag swimming, yeah we had fun! dami naka trunks! hahahaha hehehehe joke lang po! I did enjoy 'd sand and water with cool air brushing through my me... as my skin starts to turn red...I feel like having tan during summer! naka-2 piece po ako but... Im wearing sando and jogging pants kasi may games pa. Eto ang twist ng masaya kong weekend- nagpaiwan ako kasi uwian na most of the Churchmate ng 12pm but then invite me ni Mr. age and Mr. Separated(we'll call him age kasi may age na sya for me...ooooops!sorry!) "Sabi nila tara sama ka na lang samin tambay muna" while packing things. Ang lola nyo inlab sa beach and besides i dont wanna go home early... ( u know y di ba mmy). Ok naiwan na with 2 guys which I call "kuya" at talaga naman mean ko tawagin sila kuya. Ganun talaga me, I prefer bumarkada older than me, feeling ko kasi marami ko natututunan, guide ika nga. Nag iisa lang po me babe nagpaiwan. Aba ang mga lolo rumatsada na... sabi ba naman "ikaw pala ung sinasabi ni Mr. separated na sexy at maganda kagabi? di ko akalain magkikita tayo dito..." so on and so forth..Its not that Im being maarte pero ayoko pinag uusapan ang aking katawan o physical attribute ng mga lalaki (I dunno whats running into their minds right? what else is processing there?)

Hanggang ayan na ang bola-bola! Oh my gosh! hindi ako makapaniwala sa aking mga nadidinig...nakakakilabot coming from Mr. age plus d fact that he is annulled! at binata na at dalaga mga anak! soon will be a lolo! di kinaya ng powers ko!

At gusto pa yata himayin ang bawat detalye ng physical features ko... oh my from head to toe analyzing everything! sorry mga lolo di po ko ganun katanga! told ya naive lang me! (ask my bro)

Ive been wanting to call mmy lei pra sumaklolo, i want to escape that place pero nahihiya ako to disturb her weekend. So I stayed until nagyaya na ko ng 5pm, dahil natulog pa si mr. separated, if I know planado nila yun! ang sagot ko sa kanila..I dont trust filipino men over here... sa pinas pa lang wala na me tiwala lalo pa dito! oy lahat kayo nagiging binata! bat ganun? walang ganyunan! pag ginawa yan sa mga mahal nyo s buhay ewan ko lang! o kya kung sa inyo gawin would you love it? Im sure it will hurt you even more..guys pa syempre ego nandyan ( Not generalising all men).

Ok guys sorry mali talaga ako dahil hindi ko sila masyado kilala at nagpaiwan pa ako....1 batok para sakin Toink!!! pagbalik ni momma ays yari ako! naka isa na ko kay mmy lei! Im too trusting with these group of people kasi knowing na churchmates sila and they are different from other men... but doesnt make any difference. Took advantage of making friends nad having them as kuyas dito sa abu dhabi. hay naku lalo lang ako nadadala makipag kaibigan sa mga lalaki! anyways, tawag sila ng tawag at di ko sinasagot, txt ng txt but i dont send any reply. Tama na yung pinakitunguhan ko sila ng maayos. I ask myself nga bakit ba lagi na lang older men ang umaaligid aligid sakin dito sa UAE. I am praying for matured Christian man not matured sa edad (hahahahaha) I wonder?...

Ngayon lalo na yata ako nadadala sa mga filipino sa bansang ito but that doesnt mean I am really setting my eyes on foreigners. I just dont know to whom God will direct me to. I just enjoy the stage where I am now.

2006-04-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

moments with newly arrived friends from Phils... moment at the Dome zone...

moment with G on a side stree...
moment in a cafe...

moment in Burj Uman Center...
Moments of love, moments I simply cherish... there' more I would like to share.

2006-04-01T01:53:00.000-08:00

Zabeel Park in Dubai.... naglalakad sa liwanang ng dalawang ilaw na naglalakihan... sa lamig ng simoy ng hangin akoy namamangha sa tanawin na aking kinalalagyan...lalo kong naramdaman...

akoy lamig na lamig na at punong puno na ng hangin ang tyan ko...maya maya lang nagka yayaan na umalis dun kasi napansin namin para kaming sira...may dala pa kami raketa ng badminton ang lakas ng hangin..maya kung ano pang lumabas na hangin sa tyan namin noh!

2006-03-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

Hay sa wakas! I took the time to write di lang para ma-update kayo but ma-update ko din sarili ko…lam nyo yung parang you don’t know exactly kung anong kalagayan mo…mixed emotions but all I know Joy in my heart slowly robbing off by the things coming and happening around me but sure of course I have to take stand for myself and face these obstacles and be able to overcome trials, but there are things I just have to face and let it, like doing nothing with it. All I know is I make all efforts for m loves ones, for my friends to help and care.

Dumating ang mga friends ko from pinas at 3 po sila, I brief them about living abroad and especially Dubai lifestyle, I guide them in each and every way but I can only do so much they still have to decide on their own but cant take away from me not to think for their welfare, its for their own good if I tell them I don’t like what they choose. And now they are realizing it, hope its not too late. Sorry guys, so many things you all don’t know how I feel, I have to be strong in front of you.

At the same time mom is not really coping well taking insulin but I’m glad she’s more careful with her diet, I just wish I can take good care of her not just provide her needs (I hope mas malaki din ang maipadala ko pa para sa kanya)

Office…ewan… hindi ko maintindihan bakit kailangan ako masama sa mga politika at chismis. People are pulling others name at my expense. Sabi ko nga ako pa! Showbiz? My gosh! Nakita nyo ba ang posing ko sa Gulf news last week? Cguro nainggit sila hehehehehe

Nami-miss ko din magwork sa tatay kong puti, dami nya kasi naituturo sa akin, magaan din sya ka-trabaho na hindi alam ng lahat. Now I have rahks with him and she found herself wrong for judging him. Like I always tell everyone Honesty is different from defending a person. I am just saying what I know is true but maybe people really have their own mind sets and interpreting things but I hope not to the extent to ruin a person. Take out the right that is due to an employee. Hanggat may makitang butas kung san ka titirahin gagawin nila, as if malaki contribute sa kanila.

To wrap it all basta work na lang kung hanggang san ko kaya ibigay ang best ko. I do it for the lord and not for men. To God be all the glory. He knows the desires of my heart. Faithful in everyway.

I thank God coz everyday his grace is just so amazing, through other people that he is using to bless and comfort me, to cheer me up, he makes me see smiles from my family and friends, he revealed to me my true and trusted friends (Ma ays, juvs, rakhee, Giselle, ate marissa at kuya rey! Love U! UAE friends po karamihan), Ate Ghiem thank u for your concern,support and understanding, si beh at si chang I thank u for always remembering me in many ways we have shared and keeping me updated. To my AS family I truly appreciate the kind of camaraderie we have built for 3 years. I miss working with you. Truly, thank you mom at dad that for keeping me inspired… thinking of you guys makes me go on and strengthens me. My brothers and sisters thank u for keeping in touch. DCC friends thank u for being my second family.

2006-03-02T01:22:00.000-08:00

Dumating na ang aking mga kaibigan mula sa bansang sinilangan at syempre hindi mawawala ang mga pasalubong! yehey! yun nga lang ay po ay naiwan ang pinaka lalawayan kong halaya at matamis na grabansos! mahalaga ay nakarating sila ng buhay at hindi naglagay sa mga buwaya dyan sa Immigration (Hoy gising!)

I got all the clothes my sistahs bought me and slippers wow! And Finally I got the CDs where I have the videos and photos collated by my big bro! (Thanks!)

I am proud of them... heto mga photos at ng peborit kong pamangkin. This photos taken last year 1st Birthday ni Faith at dedication. (April 2005)

Lahat ng ayos gawa ng aming mga kamay at pawis namin para sa nag iisang Happy Faith namin. May kanya kanyang sagot mga mga tita at tito sabi ko nga ako na lang mag clown kaya lang di ko kya buhatin costume sabi naman nila no need daw ng costume! mga bahe sila! Tumayo lang daw ako pagtatawanan na ako! lab nila ko noh? *wink*

Naalala ko ang lahat-lahat ng mga pinagsamahan namin buong family whether in good and in bad, happiness or sadness kahit nagkakasamaan ng loob, nagkakapikunan, naglalaitan o alipustahan, nagkakantahan, nagwewentuhan, nag aabnormalan, watching movies habang nakakalat kami sa sahig, inaalipin nila ko pag kainan na (exaggerated lang po...)

At ngayon uuwi pa si ayie buti pa sya makikita nya family ko dun...pki yakap na lang sila lahat ha...wag ka lang mangcha-chansing s mga bro ko ha (lolz) Juvs pki bantayan.. hehehe pls take photos na rin pag dating mo sa haus, pki video din mga sasabihin nila sakin habang magkakasama kayo. (ahuhuhuhu)

Ang alam ko para sa kanila naman ang sakripisyo ko dito at sana may madala ako dito o sa ibang bansa ang isa s kanila. God willing kung ano man mangyari, We just hope and pray.

2006-02-26T03:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I get so tired
Sometimes I just want to go on
Things change so fast
Hazy things underway

Cant move from where I am
Dont know what to think
Cant explain how I feel
Dont know where to gaze my eyes

I want to keep my head leaped up
My gloomy feet...I just dont want to look down
All day I walk across so many people
But Where do I go from here?

I acknowledge Gods grace in all areas of my life...whether in good or bad I have thee.
What a wonderful God we have.

I miss you Happy Faith! ! !

2006-02-21T21:52:00.000-08:00

With tears fallin in my eyes...

Sweet innocence...
Warm smile...
Soft laughter...
Tickling voice...
Joyous eyes...
I just want to hug you!

(Miss na miss ko na si Happy Faith! Ang ganda ng hipag ko anoh? Hehehehehe )

2006-02-14T22:37:00.000-08:00

(During our boating trip at Dubai Creek Park- also seen in Dubai Movie)
I stop and think a while…walking through to the bunch of couples in the streets of Dubai, isn’t it fantastic how the wonders of being in-love can make their world go by everyday and the smiles that breaks the sacrifices of being here away from home. What a lovely sight to see different nationalities with different colors, cultures and beliefs stirring up love to each other. Flowers and so many flashy red stuffs hang around the stores and ladies walking with their hands holding flowers.

Here in Dubai many people don’t mind what bloodline does he/she truly comes from but what matters is Love…ooops don’t react yet we all have our reasons keeping up with your partners right now. But as for Filipinos I still talk to so many Kabayan they prefer their own.

As I reached home I thought of sharing my Chocolates from a friend who hands it to me shyly (he cant look at me while saying his words). I greeted everybody Happy Valentines Day I knock everyone’s door and let them choose which among the chocolates they want to have. It’s really a nice feeling seeing their faces getting a valentine gift. (imagine they’re all teasing me and hoping it would be valentines day everyday so I could spread around chocolates. The teasing what makes me think… is there a problem if I don’t like to date or have a boyfriend? – its just that I don’t see anyone I am interested and I don’t want to waste time with non-sense…its non sense if I don’t like him. Am I right?

I think what I’ve been through makes me a better person and I don’t hate them, I tend to hate myself for making mistakes but that where I grow and know that I have loved till my last thread. I breath and forget all the hurt. I miss them now? Not exactly…may it’s the act of having someone hold you and kiss you, I can lean my head onto his shoulders and hold my hand. Hug me so tight, look at my eyes and smile at me, tickles me, laugh so hard over my jokes, listens to what I have to say, tell me I’m wrong or misbehaving transparently. Tells me I can’t do this or that, I cant go there, I cant be with these people (oh I love it, knowing the person truly cares and is concern of my safety although sometimes its an argument)

But seriously, I don’t mind being single at my age or not having a partner or being active in procreations. For me It’s not the point at all, Feelings is not a toy, our body is not a Toy, I am created as a woman with a distinct purpose and role to act on. I don’t want to just hang around and have JUST somebody. I don’t want to end up crying. I am enjoying in what God has given me enough to laugh, smile or even cry with, enough to be able to go to work, chat with friends, think of my family’s welfare, simply making the best of what I have in life right now and in the state where I am. It’s not bad at all isn’t it?

I think at my age and being single with no attachment or commitment to anyone is not bad at all. What’s important is how we perceive things. There is a time for everything.

I’ve been praying to my best friend the Lord Jesus Christ, that he takes care of my future “Habibi”, that I hope he is smiling right now, that he’s in good health, he is responsible to himself and that goes with his family and friends and his spiritual growth. Oh and lord… I hope he is honest, sweet, God fearing and jolly. I hope I can make good conversations with him and we bring the bet in each other. That we work as a partners and friends as well. I hope we both glorify God as we pray for each other. (Other part of my prayer is just between me and WWJD) Faith works.

an Advancement...

2006-02-01T04:36:00.000-08:00

I was hopping to some kapit bahay...i saw doc kenjis psot with his parents pictures in it..I remember my folks too...and so I wanna dedicate this song for them as I imagine mine will be like that too. Here it goes...

I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I’ll miss you
I’ll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I’ll need youI’ll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
(courtesy of The Wedding Singer Movie)

Kissing Language (yup, it's a language) if a kiss is the Language of Love, then we have a lot to talk about it...methods of Love....
kiss on the ear--------------------"i'm horny"
kiss on the cheek-----------------"we're friends"
kiss on the hand------------------"i adore you"
kiss on the neck-------------------"we belong together"
kiss on the shoulder--------------"i want you now"
kiss on the lips---------------------"i love you" or "i want you"
holding hands-----------------------"we can learn to love each other"
a wink---------------------------------"Let's get it on"
slap on the butt---------------------"thats mine"
playing with the ear----------------"i can't live without you"
holding on tight---------------------"don't let go"
looking into each other's eyes---"let's get romantic"
playing with hair on head---------------"tell me you love me"
arms around the waist -----------"i love you too much to let go"
laughing while kissing-----------"i am completley comfortable w/you"

advice***if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

But as for you guys reading this it depends on you how you display your affection to somebody..coz others may have different way of showing it.
Well I really think and imagine the kiss on the forehead...but not like lola thing but I think its sweet and makes me feel really secure. But its realy nice if you kiss in someways your loved ones, the more the better plus saying I Love You

How bout you? can u relate to some of the ways mentioned above?

2006-01-23T01:49:00.000-08:00

I was browsing newspaper web sites in the phil and saw breaking news: Ernie Baron dies due to heart attack having caused by his Diabetes at the age of 65.

I think one of the high competitive broadcasters in the Phil, I can always remember his segment Knowledge Power and the Weather News. Bits of information and humor as well. Respected in his area of interest. Most people rely on his knowledge especially on Science subject.

Actually, I had weird thought...why so early? coz he's into so many herbal thing and stuffs he uses...

Mentioning of his diabetes... I sort of remembered my mom coz she also is a diabetic herself... so I need not to explain what reaction I just felt hearing the news about Mr. Knowledge Power.

I drop a message to my youngest sister and breaking d news about him. She even got surprised she didnt know about it either...then she mentioned about mom's diagnosis from the doctor... She needs to take up insulin...usual medicines is not enough to get her stabilized but the family doesnt want her to undergo with it, not this early so we opted to take a second option and that we have to wait.

I cant help it, i called my mom over the phone and asking how is she? hows everybody? then she started telling me hows the check up going... then I mentioned about Ernie Baron so she would sense I am worried but not directly informing her,

she replied back "he is still young" (coz my mom is 62y/o)and
"kung time mo na talaga, kukunin ka..."
I replied.."oo nga pero kailangan alagaan pa rin ang sarili at mag iwas sa mga bawal. O sige let me know kung ano magiging result ha."

so I opted that i'll send her stuffs over here which are sugar free and calorie friendly foods and she seemed excited about it. I just admire her for that statement, although I know she is also lonely and is being emotional. I should know...she is my mom, Am I.

She even mentioned my youngest sister is planning to put up business on foods thats where her heart is, actually she already mentioned it to me and I am actually considering it.

Wrapping it all... My emotions is coming to an extent I dont know which of my options I am supposed to do right now. All I know is I trust God, he is good all the time, Nothing is impossible with him.

Being far from home not just with my mom but everybody in the family is really tough, coz our faily deals these situations all together even with close relatives and Church Friends supporting in prayers and encouraging one another...then look at me... on my own making my way dealing with the situations here. Im still thankful that Gods love is infinite that I cannot measure its depth .

Pork Strips...

2006-01-21T20:49:00.000-08:00

este...Pugad Baboy Strips (madalas ko itong basahin nun...blast from the past pa, buti n lang may website si Mr. Pol, nakigamit na rin po ng mga strips... enjoy naman eh, libre pa advertisement)

Not just being funny pero kumukunekta sa Lipunan ng mamamayang Pilipino...mga pang araw araw na usapan, mga eksena sa ibat ibang lugar sa ating lupang sinilangan, kasama ng mga karakter na maraming sumisimbolo... alinman..itoy ginawang kakatuwa dahil pinoy ako..pinoy tayo...kayang sumaya sa kabila ng mga kaguluhang, kayang ngumiti sapagsubok na hinaharap, simpleng tao na may simpleng kaisipan, pero diskarteng Pinoy kakaiba!

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Here are My Sisters, My Brother and our Happy Faith! (December '05 Baguio Trip)

2006-01-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

YOU ARE THE...

apple of my eye, mango of my pie,

palaman of my tinapay, keso of my monay,

teeth of my suklay, fingers on my kamay,

blood in my atay, bubbles of my laway,

sala of my bahay, seeds of my palay,

clothes in my ukay-ukay, calcium in my kalansay,

calamansi on my siomai, inay of my tatay,

knot on my tie, toyo on my kuchay,

vitamins in my gulay, airplane of my Cathay,

stars of my sky, hammer of my panday,

sand of my Boracay, sultan of my Brunei,

highlands of my Tagaytay, mole on my Ate Guy,

baba of my Ai-Ai, voice of my Inday Garutay,

spinach of my Popeye, sizzle when I fry,

wind when I paypay, tungkod when I'm pilay,

feeling when I'm high,

shoulder when I cry, wings when I fly,

prize when I vie, cure to my "ARAY!",

answer to my "WHY?", foundation of my tulay,

truth behind the lie, the life after I die...

In short, you're the center of my buhay

Weird Habits! come along with me...

2006-01-17T04:17:00.000-08:00

Momma ays never ever forgets to TAGay me..kumare kasi...
(honestly..weird daw ako sabi ni panday..pro di ko ma-analyze alin sa aking pagkatao iyon? lam ko naive ako sabi ng kuya ko.

Rules:
Ilista ang 5 Top Weird Habits mo.
Ipasa sa 5 kaibigan (weirdo man o hindi..sana kayanin nyo sumagot)
Iwanan ng comment o tag sa bahay nila para naman malaman nilang TAGay na nila at pagkakataon nyo na po.

This is in no particular order
1.) I like adventurous activities but when im up there in the heights my knees are shaking and my heart palpitates so hard...pero gustong gusto ko pa rin ang mga ginagawa ko..with matching pamumutla pa daw at hilo o minsan halos mag-blow na ko..though i find it fun

2.) I've been watching Pretty Woman by Julia Roberts and My Sassy Girl for like 15 times already and yet still enjoying it...even laughing the same laughter as I first saw it. Maybe thats why its also called favorite?

3.) Lagi ko nakakalimutan ang tagalog ng "kite" at "gizzard" sa biglang tanong... o kaya minsan hindi ko talaga maalala...i dunno whats with the words but sometimes it makes me crazy.

4.)may be this one is something similar with mmy-lei but wheneva I go to places with high grasses I always think some reptiles will crawl or pass by my feet and so i prepare myself to run fast or check where I can climb.

5.) eto sa totoo lang I dunno how to evaluate myself which are my weird habits and which are not...like my kuya said... naive daw ako...some says..radical...some says just being practical...let me know if u observe something alright?

Ultimately... I like simple and flexibility...blending with different calls of situation or maybe uncertainties...dwelling neutral position.

Tita neng, doc kenj, prince of dubai...tag ko po kayo...I have a small network here but hope this will work. Thanks peeps!

(picture above...mom and dad in Disneyland HK...sorry they didnt practice using the cam...but im glad they enjoyed that trip...its our gift to mom and dad! Love yah!miss yah!)

God bless

2006-01-14T21:07:00.000-08:00

Too True, Too Often
Too often we don't realizeWhat we have until it is goneToo often we wait too late to say"I'm sorry - I was wrong."

Sometimes it seems we hurt the onesWe hold dearest to our hearts And we allow foolish things To tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let Unimportant things into our mindsAnd then it's usually too lateTo see what made us blind.

So be sure that you let people know How much they mean to youTake that time to say the wordsBefore your time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate Everything you've gotAnd be thankful for the little thingsin life that mean a lot.

Dedicated to my friends... for those whose been with me for quite some time...u know how I am...

By the way, its Happy Faith on the image above ...her first Baguio Trip! (hay ang laki na nya at kay kulit na)

2006-01-04T01:03:00.000-08:00

Bueno…here’s the TAGay…songs I am currently fascinated or currently my mood,trip,etc..

1st: FIRST LOVE -Utada Hikaru – japanese song… nice melody… while chatting with momma ays and thinking of the songs we want to play in my blog at heto ang sumunod na kanta sa aking isipan…which reminds me of someone …pero di na me bitter…its long time ago. (cheers!)

2nd: SILHOUETTE –Kenny G – coz I remember my dad playing his life-maintaining instrument Saxophone (proud of you dad!)

3rd: SUNLIGHT –Kevyn Lettau – madalas naming kantahin magkakapatid na babae while my brothers are playing the whole band. (I kinda miss that! Mga ngets!)

4th: JOURNEY – Lea Salonga – I was thinking of bagay sa title ng blog ko…”lifeswalk” prang journey ng buhay di ba?kasama ko kayo dyan mga mare (kampay tayo dyan!)

5th: GOOD RIDDANCE (TIME OF YOUR LIFE) – Green Day – kasi sabi dun “its unpredictable but in the end is right, I hope you had the time of your life” and i like the attitude of the singer the wy he sings it.

6th: HAPPY FAITH CHUCKLES – Faith Christine Mercado - nung last online ko new years eve…pinaglalaruan nila ang pamangkin ko shaking her throat while she makes sound tuloy-tuloy…long playing habang tawa ako ng tawa pinapanood nila sa cam.

7th: THROUGH IT ALL – Hilllsong by Praise music – syempre everything is for the lord, hymn of love for his faithfulness to me and carried in his everlasting arms.

Im into so many kinds of music...like the rest of my family who happens to be in a band, kaya it depends on my mood wheneva i choose songs.
Minsan sayaw naman ha.
Mga tita…I look forward to your TAGay okay! :)

Encouragement muna

2006-01-02T03:48:00.000-08:00

The Future Begins Today

PHILIPPIANS 3:13 NKJ
13 ...one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind
and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,

Today IS the first day of the rest of your life. And it will be
what you and God make it.

Your past does not have to dictate your future. You can begin
again. With God you really can have a fresh start.

God can forgive your past -- and help you to forgive yourself.
But most importantly, God can change you. He can make you into
the kind of person you know you should be.

2 CORINTHIANS 5:17 NRSV
17 So if anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation:
everything old has passed away; see, everything has become new!

Your life can be different. But don't think it will be
different if you continue to do things exactly the same as you
always have.

For your life to change -- you must MAKE changes.

If you want real change -- God's Word is the key. You must
immerse yourself in the Word. What you feed in determines the
output of your life.

ACTS 20:32 NLT
32 "And now I entrust you to God and the word of his grace--his
message that is able to build you up and give you an
inheritance with all those he has set apart for himself.

God's Word will build you up. Jesus said it would make you free
-- if you continue in it (John 8:31-32).

The Bible is God's answer to man's problems. It gives life and
hope and instruction so we can walk in victory.

Prayer is also vital. Prayer is communication with God. All
relationships require communication to keep from growing cold.

So, actively involve God in your life. Consult with Him on
every decision. God is the best helper you will ever have.

JOHN 14:16 NKJ
16 "And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another
Helper, that He may abide with you forever,

The future can be better. The choice is yours. If you invite
and involve God in your future -- it will be bright!

SAY THIS: I invite God into every area of my life and future.

The New Year is Bagong Taon!

2006-01-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

Tama ba yun?

First and foremost Thank you kay Lord sa isang taon na naman ang nagdaan na punong-punong-puno ng sari-sari at makulay na taon sa akin..syempre mga blessings na di ko deserve pero ibinigay nya... madami din akong pagkakamali... madami din kasiyahan at kalungkutan at kakulitan at katigasan ng ulo... minsan pilya pa.

Thank you din sa mga kaibigan na nag stay lalo na nung umalis ako ng pinas napatunayan ko ang may tunay at dalisay na pakikipag kaibigan... sa maganda at pangit na panahon at sa mga baong kaibigan na nakilala ko salamat din dahil hindi kayo nanghusga ng isang bading este ng gaya ko... whatever

pagbukas ko ng email ko aba kay gandang mensahe... "forgetting what lies behind and setting on for what lies ahead..." ilang beses ko na nabasa ito pero ngaun mukhang kailangan dibdiban na... ika nga namin ng mga bagong salta dito...ibang level na ito.

Basta alam ko marunong pa rin akong magmahal ng tao...marunong pa rin makipag kaibigan...marunong magpatawad...makipagkapwa tao yung mga loko2 ewan ko sa inyo... kala nyo di namin kayang sumaya dito.... mali kayo dyan!

Marami paraan pra mag enjoy:

* tumingin sa salamin...bahala ka na kung ano makikita mo
* kumain ng lugaw na may pritong bawang at luya sabayan pa ng tokwat baboy
* tapos sundan pa ng inihaw na barbeque
*tapos buhatin si pipay
* i-chat ang famly
*maglakad papuntang park (kumain muna sa bahay pra walang gastos sa pagkain) tapos magpa-picture pang blog at friendster
* kumain ng mga chocolates at chips (mura dito)
* kumanta ng kumanta kahit bagsak ang score sa videoke
* makipag txt sa mga long time no hear na kaibigan o nilalang
* magbasa ng blog...

humahaba na....pro madami pa... tuloy na lang uli ha.

Tag for searchers daw!

2005-12-28T03:49:00.000-08:00

Ive been tagged by the multiple chain of bloggers... in short-kapit bahay!

1.) The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover

2.) Need to mention the sex of the target.

3.) Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their Comments saying they've been tagged.

4.) If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post
again.

Target: Man

pero bago ang lahat....eto ang maishe-share ko...

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the
>question, "What kind of man are you looking for?"
>>She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and
> >>asking, "Do you really want to know?"
>>Reluctantly, he said, "Yes."
>>She began to expound...
>>"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man
>what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own
>bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or
>woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you
>bring to the table?"
>>The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to >money.
>>She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to >money. I need something more."
>>"I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."
>>He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to >explain.
>>She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection >mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't >need a simple-minded man.">
>"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually >because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with >unbelievers is a recipe for disaster."
>>"I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I >don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is >sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but>strong enough to keep me grounded."
>>"I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be >submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who >isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being>submissive... he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a >helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."
>>When she finished her spiel, she looked at him. He sat there with a >puzzled look on his face. He said, " You're asking a lot."
>>She replied, "I'm worth a lot."

- A Man who fears God
- A Man whom I enjoy with not only laughter but the silence and doing nothing
- A Man whom my family and friends respects
- A Man who is responsible enough for his actions, decisions and people around
- A Man who is selfish but not martyr
- A Man who is gentle but kalog
- A Man that can dig whats my innermost
- A Man who doesnt make seperation the solution to relationship problem
- A Man made by God and directed to me and me to Him.

ultimately, walang perfect...but I know nothing is impossible di ba Brad? Brad Pitt? malay natin....

2005-12-27T03:37:00.000-08:00

Hay thank God nakaraos na din po ang Christmas Celebration namin dito...basta inisip ko na lang ay mas mahalaga yung reason why we celebrate it kahit nasan pa me...

kaya eto balik sa ka-busyhan sa trabaho...ang aking among Britonay itago natin sa pangalang Tatay Gorio...ay napaka daming ipinagawang powerpoint presentation sakin para sa sales launch 2006 at bawat department dapat mayroon plano para sa taong darating...syempre kailangan bumenta yun daw ang mahalaga!

kaya heto pasensya na sa mga pinagkukuhaan ko ng pics sa worldwideweb!

Its Astro Ellen! (may shades pa...baka masilaw ako sa araw pag labas ko ng universe!)

At ang tatay gorio ko di ko pa napapalitan ang mukha! Kaya Tom pahiram muna!

Malling series

2005-12-05T01:18:00.000-08:00

heto na naman ang isa pang gimik namin ng mga housemates ko! Big brother kala mo kaw lang? heto....heto na...

kasi nag general cleaning kami ng aming haus...ariin daw namin ang haus na prang amin...kaya pra masaya ang aming pamumuhay...linis kami! ang saya kasi alala ko bahay namin sa pinas pati mga kapatid ko...tulong2 kami maglinis ng haus pag sunday bago mag church...! oki homesick na naman patutunguhan nito kaya heto na ang pang libang...
http://ellenskie.blogs.friendster.com/photos/malling_series/
una punta kami MERCATTO MALL Dubai pa rin... ang kanilang style...iba2 klase ng classic look ng Paris? (i just thought maybe)

and then...IBN BATTUTA MALL ( put some finesse on pronouncing orayt?)

such a long big mall.... ang style...different country courts...kaya daming background to choose from.. we love the China court coz of the big boat they displayed with water and i think its also the main lobby of the mall! better pay a visit..its really cool if you must try..

at syempre ang maganda sa lahat ay may car at driver kami pampasyal...bait ni kuya jun! cool naman kasama itong mga ito...mahinhin lang magpa-picture..pro kulit po yan mga yan! ito lng muna kaya namin e..pictures...

tapos punta kami creekside...its a public park beach where u and ur famly and friends can hangout for a picnic and go fishing...and from there u can see across the Sharjah! how lovely! lovely river? enk! mali...i mean galing konti langoy lang ibang lugar na...kala ko kc malayo un eh!

un ang nakalimutan namin...ang magpa picture...gutom na gutom kc kami kaya kain at upo at chikahan ang inatupag namin.

so much for that! thank u lord talga ako dahil dami nya blessing sakin...kala ko puro na lang lungkot ako d2 s dubai...im pretty well adjusting...! thank you best friend for all time! praises to you!

2005-11-30T20:18:00.000-08:00

!!!! Mga kanta sa isip at damdamin ko!!!!

- Magningning (worship song)
- How did you know ( Gary V)
- For the Lord is my Tower (worship song)
- Especially for you (MYMP)
- Of all the Things (i forgot..can u help me?)
- I wanna know what love is (Tina Arena)
- Heaven (DJ Sammy)
- Panunumpa (Carol Banawa)
- Through the Fire (Nina)
- Through it all (Worship song)
- Untitled (simple plan)
- Mga kanta ni Rob Thomas
- Mga kanta ni Patti Austin
- Mga tugtog ni Kenny G
- Hanggang Kailan (Orange and Lemons)
-Pinoy Big Brother (Orange and Lemons)
- Kaleidoscope World (Francis M.)
- Nothings gonna change my love for you (basta black sya...)

saka na yung iba pang songs basta ngaun yan muna...
nakakaburyong kaya kanta na lang tayo...
sabayan nyo ako...
sa himig ng mga kanta...

paglilibang
pagsasaya
pagpupuri
pasasalamat
pagsesenti
pangpa-relax....

ooooozah!

Per Hour

2005-11-30T20:01:00.000-08:00

(Puerto Galera Philippines Sunset)

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated,to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at thedoor.SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"
DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.
SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"
DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you asksuch a thing?" the man said angrily.
SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much doyou make an hour?"
DAD: "If you must know, I make 1000 peso an hour.""Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down.
Looking up, he said,"Daddy, may I please borrow 500 peso?"
The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed.
Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday forsuch this childish behavior."
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut thedoor.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier aboutthe little boy's questions. How dare he ask suchq uestions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down,and started to think:
Maybe there was something he really needed to buy withthat 500 and he really didn't ask for money veryoften. The man went to the door of the little boy'sroom and opened the door.
"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.
"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy."I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on youearlier," said the man.
"It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the 500 you asked for."The little boy sat straight up, smiling.
"Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled.Then, reaching under his pillow h e pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and thenlooked up at his father.
"Why do you want more money if you already have some?"the father grumbled. "Because I didn't have enough,but now I do," the little boy replied.
"Daddy, I have 1000 peso now. Can I buy an hour ofyour time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."

Share this story with someone you like....But even better, share 1000 worth of time with someone you...........love. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent sometime with those who really matter to us, those closeto our hearts.If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter ofdays............. . But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more intowork than to ...............our family.Nothing is Impossible. Even impossible spells "i m possible

The Global Village Dubai

2005-11-29T23:19:00.000-08:00

Hahaha here's one of my fun moments in Dubai enjoying the fellowship with housemates!

Ang tore ng mga indian!

Ang elepante ng mga thai!

Ang nagprisintang lebanse!

Ang Ferris wheel ng perya!

2005-11-13T01:36:00.000-08:00

I dont know whats next...im almost two months here and still alive...moving... i dont know how to describe my feelings...i even dont know what to do...i pray but I just let each day pass by going to work and then going home, think of famly and friends back in phil.

I feel alone... I mean i know i have friends with me but their life is not just about me...not just about being there for me... I also do know God is there with me every single step of the way, but everytime i want to say something or share my laughter or my cries...no one is really there...everyone is just so busy with their own lives.

In the office most of the time im also alone but i think its better this way rather than being with all those bunch of people with different characters and tantrums...

especially now that i am here in dubai... i know now who my true friends are...and many of them are gone...i have to reach for them and tell them "hey! im alive!" and buzz them from time to time and thats the time they will say hi to me. sorry, am i too expectant? demanding of your precious time? i just thought you're all my friends that cares for me, how i am. Some might say its my choice to be far away from homeland but its not the distance i am refering to i know they already know the answer.
include the things that they are pushing on me...work...i can still manage but being alone...i dont know...dont know where these feet will lead me... God will lead me. I know i just have to wait. This is the process

ang mga kaibigan ko nasa pinas pa...

2005-11-08T04:03:00.000-08:00

hi joy! its so nice to hear from u and i really do appreaciate ur letter. im glad u let me know these things... i also hope alliz told u my feelings here. yes its hard but like ol my prayers i Know and feel that God is always here with me, for all of us. ganyan din kc ang motivation ko nung umalis ako, for my famly... but now after being apart from them in just less than 2mos. oh gosh naiiisip ko kht magsama-sama kmi s hirap. pro God destined me to be here and like i promised to myself i will help anyone who is really willing to go here s abot ng the best n mkakaya ko.
actually medyo kabado me kc d ko p lam mga daan d2 at ang really good companies, pro im sourcing out connections n mkktulong satin pag dating nyo. my concern lang ako s room nga pla...kc we nid 1 mo. advance and 1 mon. deposit so meaning mataas tlga investment natin s pagdating nyo, ill do my best mkhanap ng my gamit n, mag praktis n kayo suminghot ng mbabhong ibang lahi hehehe. kailangan tlga ng malaking baon, im telling u mas mahal ang gastos d2 kaysa abu dhabi, i was shocked, nasira ang budgetting ko pag dating ko d2... adjusting again. but dont worry i know pag and2 n kyo ay mggwan nting ng praan ang budgetting s ating mga gastusin.we will only live with wat we have.

just kip praying and dont worry kaya ko pa with Gods blessing and arms embracing me day by day and everytime i sleep.

God bless. ingat kayo palagi. miss u ol. love u my friends.

love,

ellen

joy camiling wrote:
dearest ellen,

hi, ellen, this is the very first e-mail that i am going to send you, and i guess this really comes from the heart.

first, i want to say thank you for giving not only alliz but also me and the rest an inspiration. ikaw ang nagsisilbing inspiration namin na may patutunguhan ang paghihintay namin. i dunno kung ilang percent lang or somehow, siguro you just kinda felt na hindi lami masyado sersoyo ng pagpursue ng pagpunta dyan, na barkadahan lang ang lahat.. pero my dear ellen, ibang -iba. kung alam mo lang halos, hugutin na namin ang oras.. ang lahat- lahat para lang maayos na at makapunta na dyan. napa-kaseryoso ng plano namin nato. im speaking for myself alone lang, pero ellen, ito ang pinaka-turning point ng buhay ko. ng dreams ko. its now or never.. alam ko na wala ako dapat i-expect ng anuman dyan, na marami pagsubok na naghihintay samin, pero ellen, buo na ang loob ko na daanan yan in -exchange for the oppurtunity to work there. ellen, kung alam mo lang, halos- naiiyak ako bawat gabi, sa pag-iisip at paghingi ng guidance kay God. I believe na sa lahat ng nangyari sa amin, mga pinagdaanan for the past 6 mos, may reason lahat yon to arrive at this ultimate decision of going there through you.

ellen, pls. hold-on. konti lakas ng loob pa at konti tiis. malapit na tayo magkasama-sama. yung best friend mo, darating na. magkukuhanan tayo ng lakas ng loob sa isat-isa. makakaya natin yan. pls. bear with us. alam ko, namimiss mo na dito saatin, at may mga pt. na halos nanghihina ka na loob but pls., hang -on. nandyan ka na... and i know you can do it!! make the most of it!!!

sa konti panahon pa lang na pinagsamahan natin dito, ellen. nagpapasalamat ako at naging kaibigan kita.. isa na namang blessing dahil alam ko na totoong tao ka, napakabait mo and youre a strong and sensible person. i'm honored to have you.. lahat kami.

ellen, ilang months na lang dating na kami dyan. january..
kung alam mo lang, sobra dami ko na nalapitan na tao, para mag-source out ng funds..kung pano na lang pagtitipid ko..konti na lang.

you know whats the real reason kung bakit gusto-gusto ko pumunta na dyan? para sa pamilya ko ellen. di bale na ako ang magsacrifice for them, ay naku, kung alam mo lang ang kung gano ko kamahal family ko, masyado madrama... so definitely kailangan ko makaakis na. may 2 bros. pa ko to send to college next yr..

ellen, ha, wait for us.. when pala namin makuha yung acct no. plus the procedure para mapadala? 2nd week of nov. yun 15K each. then by month end dating na siguro visa.. then pareserve na kami tiket.. diba youll gonna need yung exact date ng sched ng departure namin for the visa, pls. let us know kung ano mga details na kailangan mo for the visa...

ellen, this is it!!! hehehe!!! in God's grace, i know, well gonna make it through. alam ko na hinding hindi NYA tayo pababayaan dahil alam NYA ang truest of our intentions..
sya, sya, naiiyak nako. pasensya ka na at medyo mdrama ako ngayon eh..

WE miss you and we love you,
till here muna, well call you.
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2005-11-08T04:00:00.001-08:00

Subject:
update
To: lil sis

(pls print, pra ito sa lahat)

hello sa inyo uli! thursday again at half day lang uli pasok namin at bukas ay off na. wala din amo kaya malaya kami hehehe. naku ang lamig d2 kc lahat aircon kaya gamit ko ang mga long sleeves ko at at ang sleeveless ay hindi ko maipambahay, mga conservative pala sila d2... pag sobra sexy at revealing ang suot ay pinagsasabihan, d2 kasi nakatira ang hari (Sheik ang tawag sa royalties) kaya Sheik Faith o Sheik ellen hehehe, Arbab naman pag boss o amo. kamamatay lang ng hari nung Feb and died age of 90+ with 100 wives. Kaya ang panganay ang hari ngaun kaya lalo nade-develop ang abu dhabi which is good pra hindi na dumadayo mga tao sa dubai... sa dubai unang una ay mahal ang cost of living kaysa d2 imagine ang taxi d2 abu dhabi ay 2 dhs. lang sa dubai 10dhs. plus succeeding 50fils (cents) tpos ang pagkain for sure mahal din. wala din bus d2 s city ng abu dhabi pag pupunta ka lang sa dubai o ibang bayan ang bus at wala masyado traffic d2, prang isang malaking rockwell o subic ito pro syempre meron din lugar na prang makati gilid hehehe

nagpunta na me sa gold market... at mall pala un...kala ko tiangge ang dating o prang ongpin... tabi2...kabi-kabila...mom magkano nga ba per gram ng ginto dyan? pra ma-comprare ko... kc my alahas pambata d2 40dhs lang convert nyo na lang (x 14) 22k na un. ang dami nga mgaganda at naglalakihang alahas...kaya lang d ko masyado feel dahil d nmn me mahilig sa gold... white gold pwede pa atsk silver...my mga stones din d2. kayo wat do u prefer sbihin nyo lang sakin pra pag may sale unti2 ko nabibili...

last thursday nag-church na ko sa JIL, kasama ang mga room mates ko na lahat ay christian din. (Thanbk God!) at mamaya punta naman me dun s isang international na church kung saan ay pastor ang aming boss, Madhu Abraham (indian) pro magaling mag english at anak mayaman. mabait lagi nagpapahiram ng mga inspirational books. at nagpe-pray d2 sa office.

malapit na ang ramadan kaya hindi pwede basta2 kumain sa daan. kaya kailangan mag stock ng pagkain.

paunti unti nakaka adust naman ako sa buhay d2...buti na lang marunong ako magluto at simple lang ang laba dahil automatic ang washing machine hehehe pro iba pa rin ang naaarawan... imagine sayang ang araw d2...d pwede ibilad ang damit at daing hehehe bawal kc may makita mga sinampay kung san2.

baka next week subukan ko bili rubber shoes pra makapag Gym na dahil tagal ko na di nararanasan ang pawisan, dahil pag pauwi na sakay naman kagad ng service o taxi...tapos pasok din naman agad sa establishments. at d p ko nakakagala d2...medyo ayaw pa gumana ang isip ko mag absorb ng directions... pa-office, pauwi at paunta kina ayie lang ang kabisado ko...papunta ng carinderia din, sa paligid ng building.

o kayo...wento naman dyan...ano balita? kahit chizmax pwede din. dami din chismax d2...mga pinoy...kanya2 style ng istorya ng buhay at lalo na daw sa dubai.

About job hiring d2...madami kung sa madami work pro bihira lang ung may good pay at good packge, dahil ang babarat nila cguro nga dahil sa tinatanggap ng mga indian ang mababang pay...ok na sa kanila un, malaki na para sa kanila. mas madami pa indian kaysa sa mga local d2. tlga napatunayan na sila ang most populated country at lahi..pti ba naman d2 s UAE!

kuya un kwento mo mga kotse harurot ayun maingay kahit anong oras at nakakagulat, pang karaniwan lang ang camry, peugot, BMW, mercedes...etc...basta luxury satin ay common lang d2. mura lang kc.

at ang mga bilihin d2 ay mura lang din kung pera d2 ang pag uusapan... imagine toblerone bar na chocl8 1Dhs lang pag convert mo ay Php14 lang dyan satin ay 20 to 25 pesos na. at marami pa iba.

pro syempre iba pa rin ang pinas at kasama kayong lahat, pro with Gods grace ay nkakaya ko naman ang mga bagay2 d2 na natutuhan ko. Dapat daw wag tayo takot sa changes, besides i wont stay here for long.

tinatantiya ko pa ang budget ko d2, adjust din at pra lam ko san ako makakatipid. at palagay ko nakakatipid ako pag nagco-convert ako at naiisip ko ang palengke sa pinas at mga tiangge dyan at mga sari2 store na pwede tingi pati mantika at pamina pwede ang isang kutsarita lang dito kc kailangan malaking bote lang available. naghanap nga ako sachet ng 3 in 1 pra d ako ma-addict sa kape... aba ang laki ng box! kaya heto sa office na lang libre pa!
hay dami pa kwento pro ito muna dahil ang haba na nito at abuso n ko d2 sa office, may kunsensya din naman ako hehehe. thanks again. Miss u ol. love you all my famly. God bless.

Mom at dad...aral na kayo mag computer..........

mwah!

2005-10-04T02:18:00.000-07:00

Now Showing ! ! !

Here I am now… Abu Dhabi UAE, working in a private company…so far Im coping up everyday with the changes in my life, adjusting with lifestyle, its not that hard…What’s difficult is the loneliness…missing my loved one’s back home.

The place is nice, organized, well taken care of, rich culture (living with the Sheiks= Royalties) But I must say there’s no place like home. Dad, Mom, Ate, Kuya, my brothers and sisters, my pals since high school and college, my colleagues, oh even my ex-boss (Funny but professional boss)

I miss the simplicity of things… I can buy “chichirya” like 1 Peso for “Boy Bawang”, or if we ran out of cooking oil I’ll just say “5 pesos ate…” or If eat in a Carinderia or what we call fast food here, soup (sabaw) for free, u don’t have to buy them… u have to eat first before you get free “sabaw” or you get to buy as what they call here “take away” weird di ba? I really though so hehehe

And many things and memories I am missing right now but hey… there are also lots of good things here, foods are being bought at a cheap price especially Bread. And there’s no traffic

By the way its Ramadan time now for muslims. Time for Fasting and we shouldn’t be seen eating…its really unethical if they saw us munching, now we have to hide. Stores are closed early in the morning and will open I think 6pm. (whew...such a long wait…Food!Food! Rice!Sabaw!)

Ok I have a lot of things to tell but I’ll just publish next time. Im starving really starving. I have to get home and cook.

Nearer...

2005-09-08T20:03:00.000-07:00

I thought it will just pass as i felt it through the days of exchanging text messages and oh im leaving the country soon. The conversations and the short times we've been together, I thought it was special... I thought there was something... and I didnt notice it till I feel pain... sadness... and longing... after such a long time.

Though I failed I have no choice but to be OK... its always the right thing... to choose whats right and would be best helpful for the situation and encouraging to me.

Lord, I know I failed once again, disappointed you once again (most of the time yata?!) but i keep trusting and praising you. for everyday is made wonderfully by God.

"This too shall pass..."

Nexxxxt Picture!

2005-08-25T17:43:00.000-07:00

NeXt PiCtUrE!
My Trip! My Flight! Booked already! yes, there's no turning back, my friend ayie called me and bash in the news im leaving on the 14th September 2005. Whew! Days pass me by so fast that I dont know what else should I do before I leave or who else should I meet?... I hope to go on trips like vacation but the thing is... no Budget. Its ok, not a big deal, what's important is that almost everything fell into its own places as I have prayed. Thank God!

"All my bags are packed, im ready to go
Im standing here outside the door
already im so lonesome i could die

Coz im leaving on a jetplane
Dont know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go..."

Dont worry my dear friend Ayie...Im coming!

Coming Sooooooon...

2005-08-22T02:47:00.000-07:00

Its not a movie or what, but its Me! coming soon to my destination, the country where the new journey of my story will begin. Sabi ko sa inyo samahan nyo ko... sa panibagong challenge, bagong environment, boss, tirahan, opisina, basta dami mababago sa takbo ng buhay ko. Kinakabahan ako kahit papano (heartbeat...) bakit kamo? kasi ang dami kwento about that country, may nagkukwento ng maganda meron din kwento ng pangit (kahit san naman yata may ganung mga kwento)

Hay, ang dami bilin:

Ang mga paalala "len, mag iingat ka dun at maraming loko dun, pati kapwa pinoy"

Ang dami din drama "bes, pano yan iiwan mo na ko...ayoko ko pa isipin...basta bes magkikita pa rin tayo..."

Ang dami din horror "hala, marami manyakis dun!" (may trauma kasi ako)

At syempre may comedy din "o wag kayo alala pagdating ko dun, take kagad ako ng picture with my cellphone tapos padala ko sa inyo dito ha..." "hindi, kahit wag na, ok lang kami." (aba! tama ba yun?)

Wait ko pa ang booking flight ko pero ok lang at least I have time for my family, friends and myself (beauty rest! beauty daw oh!?!) at mas may time pa din ako mag shopping ng mga baon, mas may time din para maging emotionally prepared ako, madami kasi ako pinagdaanan gaya ng maraming tao paligid ligid. oist! tao ito!

Oo nga pala hindi ko pa din nami-meet ang mga friends ko from all over the pinas hehehe sana makita ko kayo bago ko umalis... aba! 2 years na yata uli pagbalik ko dito. Basta sched natin ito ng maayos, pati ung gusto makipag eyeball dyan... censya na...scared po ako, im not used to that kind of thing.

In short kaya ako nakapag blog wala na ako work, pahinga na ako. Sa wakas!

Yesssssss!

2005-07-13T12:25:00.000-07:00

It's such a wonderful blessing! why? coz i'll be traveling soon...where? still a secret... but as I continue walking through... join me in discovering, experiencing and be surprised how this journey called "life's walk"

Stories,Experiences, Thoughts
Life's Walk

I went forward walking with the tides moving through to another shore... crossing oceans and deeming lights on air I will pass through. Join me my friends
O' new path I will walk.